Two Kittens, Two Houses

I am on my bed then I felt something on my breast. There are two kittens on top of each. I tried to hug them and put them beside me as I sleep but the other one ran away. So I called him/her back.

Next thing I noticed, was that why am I sleeping on the floor but the sheets are with me. I saw my bed empty. Then I got up, carried the two kittens with me, from the house in km 4 I went started to walk back to our house in km5. Then I thought, "my mother has two houses?". Skipping, gliding and floating I went by.Arriving home, the two household dogs welcomed us. Then I set the two kittens free and they're happy to be in their old territory as they played with the dogs.

A Stone's Throw Away From Palawan

After a long time, it was just this morning that I dreamed of my late father. We went traveling and this time, it's in Mindanao. Then in my mind, I said: "usto tapnu malibot Luzon, Visayas ken Mindanao". I remember seeing the seaside, twilight then he said that the Island I am looking at is Palawan. It is just a stone's throw away from where I am. I can't understand if it is day or night. It is just that I can see the Island, the sea and where I am (this is the second time that I dreamnt of Palawan. The first was that I was in there). Then I have to wake up so that I will not be late in going to school.

As usual, the presence of my father in my dream brings me comfort. This dream did not leave me tired. Thanks, dad. I miss you.

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At last, this morning Astro held my hand. (kunwari tiningnan ang oras hehe...)

Then I went to the church to help 1D in their class mass. My first time to play the guitar throughout the duration of the mass. There were some mistakes but again, there the power of prayer was affirmed. I can feel I was so blessed. The better behavior of the students is also noticeable. That mass was so powerfull.

Then at recess, I talked to Astro, don't know what to say but i can strongly feel there is something I need to do to affirm him. Don't know what happened how I held his hands, then I hugged him. I just hope I was able to send him the message of care and comfort. I just hope he is fine now.

Night and Day

Woke up this morning with a dream that I'm home. Then there's sir L the principal in the school setting with the usual people in the school. It is night time and there are particular crops in focus just like what i have in farmville: red mushrooms. Then i spread my sight and I saw mountains in the far distant. The brown earth covered with sunlight creates a dramatic orange hue just like what I usually see during sundown on the mountains of Balili. Then I wondered why is it that it is day there and night time. Then slowly as if the day is breaking and little by little many are illuminated by the sunlight but where the crops is, it is still night time.

Then I have to get up to prepare to go to school. I plan to go there as early as 7 am because I want to talk to Astro but maybe because of my slow movements, I got there on time when the bell rang.

But I am happy at the end of the day because after a long time, I am again with the three students who have become close friends with me. Now, I know they are the three kittens I dreamed of before. I just hope I will be able to give the best to them and bring out the best from them before they graduate.

the sea, the bike, the rain

i dream of astro and me and there are other people around. we have to go to a place and we have to move before the tide goes up for the only way to go there was a beach. Together, we rode his bike, me at his bike. I'm concerned that I might be too heavy but the bike moved on. And so we rode along the shore.

Next scene was that we are at an eatery/restaurant. Everybody seems to know one another. He sat down and eat while preparing for the next ride. the journey is not yer over. And am waiting to continue the ride. It's sooo sweeet holding on him.

Next scene was that I am in my family's house. My sister moved her bed a few feet towards her headboard. The house is so old and it is raining. We just woke up on a Sunday morning and my sister is anticipating  a female friend to come over. It is a rainy day.

that's all for now. Today is Sunday and after finishing my meal, I'l have to do my home chores again. 

No pants

This morning, i dreamnt i went to the store accross the hi way and i don't have pants! then in going back to the house, why is it that i have to ride on a super mini bus and it is taking me too much timje to go back. and i'm gonna be late! hmmm...what does this mean?

Today, at least the mass songs were better. But at the end of the day I'm still hurt because of Busaseg taking my place for astro. i cannot do anything. sitll wondering and questioning until when will this pain and suffering be. when will i be able to fulfill my mission. how will i be able to break the bondage that is making him sad and in pain also?

...and now he is angry because of our analysis with a friend.

i'm hurting and sad.

Sept 2, 2011

A day where I lack sleep and all I want to do is go home and sleep. But alas! practices and practices every hour. Then the club i am handling has to sponsor the 5pm novena mass (with other groups of course). Tried to stay awake and do my task well.

Prayed over for my "alaga" after the novena mass. I hope I was able to do it well despite the many distractions. Ang I'm not yet over for tomorrow's mass will need a lot of prayer.

Went home with the students but astro suddenly rode the jeep w/o even saying a nudge. Of course, the gurl still is following him. Then together with the other students, we rode a jeep home. Then we saw the two in km 5. I wonder where did they go for a date? Hmmm.... now my mind is wondering how will I be able to do my mission if there is busaseg who is always with him? What more, I am not the only one who is hard up in this situation. My alaga and the people around are also being affected very badly because of the flirting that busaseg is doing. No, it's not just flirting but he is enslaving my alaga. (Sigh...) how much more sacrifes, hardships, sadness and depression do I need to go through and astro needs to go through just for this mission to be a success?

Sept 1, 2011

Haha...I survived August. Today is another month and the birth month of a special one. Not much can i recall from my dreams. Just that there are so many people in it.

Hmmm....what would September bring?