the latest dream was that of one of my mentors...still strong but like the rest, have gone through some medical operations...my question is why?

A Bowl of Sweets

Friday, Oct 28, 2011. I wake up early at 5 am from a beautiful dream. I was with my community and there is an activity. We were segregated accordingly and each person has a package with them and a bowl of sweets each. I was with Ellyn and am looking for J. His parents were there but I didn't see him. Then Judith called me to join the youth. My bowl of sweets is on the table. I was eating them one by one with each having a different make. Am wondering if it is ok to eat it now. Then an elderly woman came to eat also. She didn't know she also have a bowl. Then the more that I started consuming my bowl and savoring its sweetness. It is ok if somebody shares but I really want to taste each for they have different texture and flavor.

Then I wake up, I have enough time to do my laundry, finished it and hanged them then took a bath then I went to school early. It is a mass and thank God I was able to lead the singing in the mass (of course there are still some jinxes, but nevermind, as long as the presence of God was strongly felt.)

My day yesterday was beautiful. But still, a hint of sadness hit me when I saw K joining A and his friends in going home. Until now, it deeply hurts especially that K is worsening my project. So I spent some time alone again by the river feeling the hurt and the pain while waiting for Ellyn.

Evening was spent chatting with my friend until we went home. 

A man and a woman in the 20's

There is a woman and a man/boy? who looked weird because they wear clothes circa 1920's in the US. Then later someone helped them and they started to fit in.  The woman and the boy is getting along so well but there is a man with greying hair with glasses who is like them. He is getting along so well also but I saw him sadly looking at his jewels of a heart and square and wrist watch. He is deciding which will he sell just so he can give the cost of his remaining possessions to the fat pig-like bum leaning on the post. Sadly, he choose to sell the square and heart jewelry for a few coins. I feel that these jewelries are more important to him especially the heart because it is the only memory of love and relations of good days gone by. I feel so sad about that dream that when I wake up, I told myself I should have bought the jewelries and gave it back to the man.

And oh, I remember right before I wake up, I saw the image of K J for a few seconds. I wonder why. I feel so sad and confused. Surely, there is something about this dream. The symbolisms I can't understand or rather I don't want to understand.

Then I 've just watched August Rush. I feel such emotions while watching it that I really did shed tears when the movie ended which added more to my confusion. Seemingly, there is a message to all these but either I can't understand or I really am afraid to know.

Bah, well for sure I will make my music alive again.

Goodnight, prepare for another school day tomorrow.

White Pillow

This morning's dream gives me comfort and peace in the midst of my pain and confusion.

Aian, JP and me were going out of the school then we fell asleep on a white pillow. I woke up and wondered how come I fell asleep and he is with me, his face facing mine. The two of us are sleeping using my white soft pillow. Then Aian, me are inside a big house. This time, it is Alma who is with us and some other people. We were figuring out the house. There is a stair case going up, but there is also an elevator but my companions are trying to look for the entrance of the elevator. In my mind, I guess I know. Then Alma looked into the ref and somewhat it looks like we are going to cook. Then Aian started already to go up the stairs calling us when are we going to go up, telling us why waste time on the elevator to open when there is an other option. Then pop, I wake up.

That dream just brought me peace and assurance. 

October 4, 2011

Woke up again this morning with a dream. It showed me the elder brothers of Astro. All of them have something in common with him. The other sibling have semblance with his eyes. And again this time, I feel like I am in a hazy place not my place...enchanting. I can dimly recall that my students are also  in the dream. Something like telling me what to do...hmmm....

Then I dream of Summer Ace asking me about Malaysia. Then I told him that he knows more than be because he is the one who was able to travel their physically. All I have are just knowledge.

Then pop! It's waking time....

Now in a few minutes, me have to prepare to go to bed.

Good night! :)

Oct 3, 2011

woke up this morning with a dream of a man. His other arm was somewhat became invalid maybe because of accident or illness. Because of this, he retreated to the lonely wild and lived ascetic life. His father was the only one who religiously comes to visit him. Actually he can still do a lot but he opted to live a hermit's life. It is his choice while in fact a lot of prosperous opportunities are still coming his way.

A lady, maybe his love, sits and wait at his parent's house. People their age are already producing babies but they somewhat have none yet. The man's parental family have a meager source of income and they are comfortable with it. Supplying rags is what they do.

Then pop! I woke up with the feeling that even if physically I am alone in my bed, I feel like a male is just beside me. Whoever is he? I cannot identify from the two. But I am impressed though.

Sleepy and tired for the day, as I closed my eyes for a little while, A vision of black beans just popped out from my imagination. I feel like it means prosperity.

But the dream about that man puzzles me for the whole day 'till this moment. Makes me want to pause and stop to figure out what it means. Actually it made me sad for the whole day.

Two Kittens, Two Houses

I am on my bed then I felt something on my breast. There are two kittens on top of each. I tried to hug them and put them beside me as I sleep but the other one ran away. So I called him/her back.

Next thing I noticed, was that why am I sleeping on the floor but the sheets are with me. I saw my bed empty. Then I got up, carried the two kittens with me, from the house in km 4 I went started to walk back to our house in km5. Then I thought, "my mother has two houses?". Skipping, gliding and floating I went by.Arriving home, the two household dogs welcomed us. Then I set the two kittens free and they're happy to be in their old territory as they played with the dogs.